Monday 30 May 2016

Its Time I say Goodbye.



My world was full of love
when you were still around
Never knew sadness, my love,
When your arms were there around.

Do you remember the day we met?
The day was so bright
I was sipping on a cup of delight,
when you flashed by
riding your Thunderbird.
I saw you looking at me
and I though we would never be,
but you came around to me
With a magical smile and another cup of delight!
I was taken by surprise,
because I knew we have never met before,
But there you were siting by my side
like a man from my life before.
You talked with ease and love
made me smile a lot
and when the time was about,
You asked me if I would be
your world and your only love!

Baby, do you remember?
the days we spend together,
doing every thing,no matter
how bad the days turned to be.
I walked these crowded streets,
hanging on your arm like a kid,
and you brought lovely gifts
every time I shed a tear.
You said I looked lovely
clicked my pics every time i looked funny,
I knew i looked so weird
but you told me i was an angel.

Days went by like the turn of each pages,
two years we loved and lived like ages,
but then God decided
to give you a better place to live.
All that night i have been calling,
only the endless ring of your phone.
I didn't know,baby,baby I never knew,
that you were in so much pain.
Baby I didn't know that you were saying goodbye.
When they brought you in,
I didn't shed a tear,
But when they took you away
my heart died on the way.
And,baby, I was never ready,
to let you go,to say good bye.

But now as years have passed by,
your memories still linger in my eye,
and your smile and your words,my baby,
they keep me living each day.
But now I understand the way,
how it should be, how it should have been.
Baby, am ready today
to let you go away.
I know I should set you free,
for all that you have done for me,
So here, am all ready
to see you leave, to say good bye.

 

Sunday 29 May 2016

An Ever Growing Void In My Heart.

 
      I have had this empty space growing in my heart ever since I was a child. It keep growing with me. I was told by a few that I should learn to fill it up with things that i love. But the more I try to fill in this void with new knowledge, lovely sights, relationships and other dear stuff it grows even bigger, leaving me depressed,insomniac, nervous and I try harder to pull myself into a protective shell. This hurts even more. I feel lonely and sad. I suffer from chronic headaches and nightmares haunt me during the little time i sleep. What am I going through?

  Last day when i told my friend that I was feeling lonely,she asked me how on earth would that be possible when am surrounded with people who love me so much. My family and my dear friends never have left me alone. But still,even in the middle of a huge crowed I feel lonely. I get lost in a strange and confined space. I talk,I smile and I laugh but the void within keeps growing. I miss something.Something that is so dear to me but I have no idea what that is. How do I find it? How do I make people around me understand that am crying when am laughing, that am screaming when am silent and that am trying to run away from almost every thing that exist in my life! 

  Well, this is crazy. I agree. But this is the truth. I am afraid of certain things that if I tell anyone they will laugh at me. I used to share these uneasy feelings with my mom and even my best friends but they don't understand. They have only seen the brave,ever smiling, talkative ME! I tried depending on books,paintings,music and movies but they helped only for the fraction of time spend on them. And I will be thrown back to the cold damp lonely space once again. 

   I have been searching for long to find this something that could fill in this gaping wound. I ended up in the wrong relationships, made the worst choices, and tried almost everything that was possible for me to just stop it growing. At some point I even considered giving up on everything. I even thought at many a times if this was normal or if this is the way every human being live on. I found no answer. Nothing could help me find the missing part of my heart. I am still searching, still hoping and am still suffering every second in this empty space inside and out! 

            
"Forever lost in the depths of  raging sea. A sea that always drained my soul empty and left the void grow!"


Saturday 28 May 2016

Just to remind you how beautiful Planet Earth is!

    Planet Earth is the home for millions of beautiful living things. We happen to miss many a mesmerizing sights being busy with our city lives. Here, let me share with you a few of such wonderful sights that we have missed but someone else captured and saved it for us. Am sure you guys gonna love this.































Friday 27 May 2016

"TO ALL THOSE WHO HAVE LOST THEIR BEST FRIEND"



 I miss YOU!


       I just lost my best friend today. Most of us feel so sorry in our life for losing the best people we ever met. We miss them every day,every hour even every second. Tell you what, its really hard to find a replacement to that very special person. And it hurts so bad! But why or how did we really lose them?

       Good friendships take a certain level of investment. Our friends may not be perfect.Neither are we. Nor can one find a friend if he looks for perfectness in every person he meet. But the mutual trust and understanding makes the story of best friends just perfect! And its our friends who bring a kind of stability and normality to our lives. But my question is... WHY DO WE LOSE THEM?

     We lose friends when we start thinking about ourselves more and more each day. Friends cannot always stay by your side,holding your hands and saying this nightmare is gonna pass. They have a life of their own to live. A job to deal with and a girlfriend or a boyfriend to take care of. We don't own our friends.We don't own anyone or anything in this world. So what we have to do is simply "let it go". But still, hold on to the same old wonderful relationship that you had with this one special person. Even if you cant have it in real time,keep it in your heart. Just let it live and grow in your warm little heart! Because someday, somewhere you are definitely going to get him back. 

    Most of us think of our partners or lovers as our soulmates but in many cases its not right. Our best friends prove to be our soulmates in major cases. They can say whats in our mind by just looking at our face or judge our mood by a single word we speak. And they don't even have to ask us to know the reason behind our lost look. Our best friends do not judge us with what we say or do because they know what we are within. They chose to cling to us no matter how crazy and weird we are and give us their best. And if we ever lose them, my dear,its totally your mistake!

    Be selfless and chase away your ego and possessiveness. Let you friend live his or her live and be happy to be a part of it. Never expect your friend to consider you his life or his world. But be an essential for him to live his life. Respect your friend's personal space. Never complain if he was busy with his job or family or something else that is important for him. Instead be all ears and eyes when he is finally back to you. You will find your friendship growing and blooming every time you spend time together this way.

    Losing your best friend is like losing yourself. So never ever commit this mistake. I just did! I lost this wonderful person because i was being a little selfish and a little egoistic. Well, the worst is done now and apologizing is not quiet enough. But saying a big SORRY does the magic at times. My dear Friend, if you are reading this i want you know that you were the best thing that had ever happened in my life. You were my living diary and its too hard for me to hate you.


     "Dear Best Friend, you are weird, you are stupid and funny. 
You have no real brain!
 I am like that too. 
I guess that's why we are so perfect together. 
Thanks for always being there for me.
I love YOU.
 Still you are stupid! "

Poem.



Summer Rain.


I waited so long and I sang a song,
But the wind never kissed the darling buds.
I walked by the river
watching the sky so clear
But the lark flew high 
without a lovely song!
Oh my summer rain,
come pour on me like a dream.
oh my summer rain
come kiss my pain away.
I touched the mirror below,
the ripples, the river said hello,
But so still remained the willow,
Like its lost dreaming in yester years.
Oh my summer rain
shower on us with love.
Oh my summer rain
Let love sprout in our souls again.
 

Thursday 26 May 2016

Dream - A Poem

       " To Tommy, My Dear And Dearest Friend."

DREAM

When half of the world was sleeping,
And the other half still in the fields reaping,
I lay awake in my bed weeping
Still waiting for the sleep Fairy's blessing.
Then at some point of the night
A gentle wind carried your thoughts to my bed
And the precious sleep came to me without a fight.
I saw your face in the dim light,
You were holding my hands so tight,
Giving me the strength to walk upright
And your smile did send all my worries to flight.
We walked long miles,
Roads through woods and wilds
You picked up daisies and lilies
And showered me with smiles.
Then I saw a river flow
Salmon's swimming below,
A flute was playing from somewhere above,
Where the hills kissed the lovely rainbow,
But when I turned I only saw
A bunch of red roses where you stood a moment ago!

Clouds grew dark and the thunder roared
The trees flew up and fell on the ground.
Lightning struck and fields all burned
But I stood there knowing not where you could be found.
I called out loud and for hours oh! I cried,
But you were gone and my world just died!

Then I opened my eyes, I was in pain
Panting and gasping for air in vane.
And now I lay sleepless ,my nerves did strain
Hoping to meet you in another dream once again.

KARMA - The Cause & Effect Principle!

         Moving towards the end of another wonderful day. The sun is giving way to the darkness to take over and the moon is up to rule over night. And again will the night fade and dissolve into the vibrant colors of yet another day when it's time is done. Every thing in this universe witness the cycle of life. Of existence. Most of us are familiar with the word "KARMA". Karma is the spiritual principle of cause and effect. It is believed that what we do now will come back to us in the future. That simply means, "you will have to go through the same thing that you made others to go through". How true is this? I have no idea! But tell you what,my friend, there is an all seeing eye - could be up there in the skies or down in the underworld or east or west, where ever it is,its definitely watching you!

      KARMA is not fate really. The Vedas tell us, if we sow goodness, we will reap goodness; and if we sow evil, we will reap evil. Leave the sowing and reaping thing aside. Am sure all of us are not so good at planting and farming! So lets see it with our simple eyes. When you hurt some one, you inflict a kind of deep pain within their soul. Its a negative energy that emits from the person who is hurt and it in-turn affects the whole energy cycle. Then there is an excess of negativity in the atmosphere. It remains there till an equal amount of positive energy is liberated to buffer it. But in our world today how much of positive energy is being given out! Think its not just one person being hurt each minute,hour or day! Just like all the motor vehicles and machinery emit poisonous gas and other waste into the environment, we humans give out as much as,or may be a higher amount, of negativity into our surroundings. Man created these machines and other things and man suffers from its bad effects. this is the same kind of phenomenon happening in case of our spirituality and Our deeds in social day to day life. And at last we get punched right on our face with what we did someday to someone. This is simply what Karma is. 

    The new world is so different from the world depicted in our Puranas or Vedas. Here we see people fighting to be the first one to bring to dust someone else' s life. The only thing that matter here is one's own happiness. How could we change a world that is ruled by greed and selfish motives? What is the use of shouting " WORLD PEACE" if one cannot find it within himself? How could you be happy when you let down your own kind and destroy all the gifts of happiness that God had planted in you? How could you invest for a happy future when you have already wiped it out of the big picture? A lot of questions right? My answers for these wont be the right ones for you. So ask these questions yourself and find out what you could do to make your life worth something. 

   Realize that whatever the human mind can conceive and believe,it can achieve. God has given us so much power and potential to do whatever we want. Its our duty to realize our worth and help others find theirs. Remember you don't have all the time in the world. Life is time and do not waste it in laziness. Its time for you to understand the truth and worth of your existence. Its time to start living a meaningful life.

         "Neither Fire Nor Wind, Birth Nor Death Can Erase Our Good Deeds."
                                                                                               - Buddha.